Ghetto Sim Bitches

Ellie, I Love You

Sunset and Rain

Dinner Darlings

I am in love with my new job for the freedom it has given me. I had the evening free to enjoy a wonderful dinner with my two older sisters tonight.

Coldplay Kinda Day

It's official today was my last day at Wal-Mart! I am so excited to start my new job, meet some new people and to be secure in my own life again. On the flip side, I am a little sad to have said goodbye to my "beautiful bakers" but I am chalking this emotion up to manopause and the gloomy weather. I will obviously be seeing them still since I shop at Wal-Mart every other day.

I'm excited to see where my life is headed now. Maybe I'll meet my very own Nintendo buddy like in the Sparks video posted above.

The Day the Earth Stood Still

The bill allowing gay marriage in NY has finally been passed! What a monumental day in the civil rights movement. Now on to the important stuff...Who wants to marry me?!
NY I really do love you.

Ben Sollee is All I Need

*POP!*

Both of these songs are restoring my faith in modern pop music. Maybe it's a lapse in judgment but they are just too fun for me to care.

RAWR.

Chinese Fire Drill

I've been offered a new job! I feel like I've played a quick game of Chinese Fire Drill and now I'm back in the driver's seat of my life.
Here's a photo of my new office. No stalkers please.



Oh and one more thing...NO MORE HAIR NETS!

I Love NY

Strawberry Fields Forever

Joanna and I went strawberry picking today. It was the perfect day for it, warm weather, sunshine and fresh delicious strawberries.

Reflections

Sneak Outfitters

It's official I'm giving in to my Asian roots. I am pretty much in love with this clothing company.

Creative Outlet

I have been thinking lately that I would really like to purchase a nice DSLR camera. I've been doing my research and I have gotten some suggestions from two great artists that I know. So I know what I want, I just need to start saving my pennies to get it. I have found that I really enjoy taking photographs and it would be nice to have a creative outlet again. Who knows, maybe I could even start doing more exhibits and even selling some of my works on the side. These are some pictures I have taken with my cell phone:

F is for Forniphilia

Forniphilia is the fetish of human furniture, a form of bondage or sexual objectification where the human body is incorporated into a chair or table, etc. Please see the music video below for a visual and a testicle high five at about approximately 1:50 into the video.

I may have posted this song before and so what if I did. It just means I really do love it.

"I dont know whats missing now... that im away from you...

Dreams are falling down right in front of me...

All im feeling now is just a memory....

Knowing that things never will be like they used to be..."

This song brings me back to the countless bus rides I took through the Lincoln Tunnel and despite that it makes me feel so good.

NY State of Mind

The other day I definitely was in a "NY state of mind" and by that I mean stricken with anxiety! I received an email from an art gallery in NYC wanting me to go interview this past Friday. You'd think that I would have been happy, I thought I would have been at least. I was totally unprepared for the feelings it stirred up in me. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack; all the negative feelings, fears and uncertainty that I felt leaving NY in February came rushing back and hit me like a heard of wild buffalo.

That's when I realized it. I am not ready to go back to NY. If I decide that that's where I want to be again, I need to spend more time building myself back up mentally, emotionally and financially. I also realized moving back will require that I am offered a stellar job, where I am compensated extremely well and the balance between work and life is just that, balanced.

I had a good talk with a good pal of mine who went through a scenario similar to mine in NY and he decided to move to a small village in Malta, that he described as boring, to be with family and get away from it all. He was right in what he said "NY is a beast. And sometimes you just need boring."

(My favorite picture that I took in NY.)

Bread Winner

I am exhausted. I think it's from a lack of sleep. The other night I didn't fall asleep until 3AM only to wake up at 7AM to go to work. *zonk!* It appears it's catching up with me today. Lucky for me I requested the day off from work. I was supposed to attend the First Annual Belmont Party in Albany today but turned out to be a no go. Joanna forgot Pentecost was coming up, so she couldn't make it to Albany because she has to feast in the name of Christ. That sounds mean, but I think it's accurate!

So I took advantage of the situation and got my much needed haircut today. On the walk home I spotted these adorable deer:


In other news...I held the first "Beautiful Baker" contest the other day at work. Naturally being the only contestant and judge, of course, I won. I guess that makes me a bread winner!

Baby Drugs

Tristen- Baby Drugs



I love this song on a hot summer day.

Take a Trip With Me

Here I go on...

The Book of Disquiet

"I've always been an ironic dreamer, unfaithful to my inner promises.
Like a complete outsider, a casual observer of whom I thought I was,
I've always enjoyed watching my daydreams go down in defeat.
I was never convinced of what I believed in.
I filled my hands with sand, called it gold, and opened them up to let it slide through.
Words were my only truth.
When the right words were said, all was done; the rest was the sand that had always been."

"Life is an experimental journey undertaken involuntarily. It is a journey of the spirit through the material world and, since it is the spirit that travels, it is the spirit that is experienced. That is why there exist contemplative souls who have lived more intensely, more widely, more tumultuously than others who have lived their lives purely externally. The end result is what matters. What one felt was what one experienced. One retires to bed as wearily from having dreamed as from having done hard physical labor. One never lives so intensely as when one has been thinking hard."

"My soul is impatient with itself, as with a bothersome child; its restlessness keeps growing and is forever the same. Everything interests me, but nothing holds me. I attend to everything, dreaming all the while. […]. I'm two, and both keep their distance — Siamese twins that aren't attached."

Hole in One!

Today I moseyed on down memory lane and revisited the haunts of my childhood. When I got out of work today at 4PM I met up with Kris and Jakob and went to the mini-golf that I always frequented as a child and a teenager. It's got the same cuteness and charm it always had. Plus, I did pretty amazing and on the 18th hole I hit the ball in the clown's noise and won a free game! No easy feat, I assure you. This clown always used to taunt me and I can say revenge is sweet.

Afterwards, we decided to hit up Footie's Freez another hot spot of my youth. I remember as a child anticipating their ice cream the way I anticipate payday now as an adult. I would sit in the car, looking at what seemingly was an endless list of flavors and hash out in my head what would be the most satisfying to my young, yet refined palette. I usually decided on a chocolate or strawberry crunch bar or a fruity push-pop. Today I thought about maybe ordering a tin roof (because it made me think of the B-52's Love Shack) but I played it safe and chose a peanut butter cup flurry made with chocolate ice cream. It never disappoints.