Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Batter Up!

Here's my pearl of wisdom for the day:

There are only three things in this world that we have complete control over and these are our thoughts, our emotions and our reactions. That's it. So unless you want to be completely powerless in this world, you better figure out how to master these. Really when you think about it we have no business trying to control anything or anyone else, it's pointless. The world is going to throw what ever it wants at you and you can spend your life dodging these curve balls or you can put on your baseball glove and learn how to catch.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

This post is strictly so I'll remember that I really want to download the new Anoraak album! They are the freshest export from France since...well, something French and delicious. Bon appetite!

Also a quick trip down memory lane:

I told my friends I would win hands down if there were such a thing as the "Ugliest Fake Cry" contest. Oh the things I do to amuse myself while I wait for a face mask to dry...

See, I told you this post was pointless.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Praline Nut Mix & The Soundtrack to my Life

So here it is, 12:18AM on an early Monday morning, I should be sleeping but I'm indulging myself in a bag of Duane Reade's Praline Nut Mix and some music. These nuts are coated in a tasty concoction that makes the nuts so hard, I profess I may break a tooth. But I digress.

I came to a realization that my iPod is the perfect companion, it totally gets me. While riding the bus today, I was overcome by the epiphany that the music on my iPod played in the specific sequence as it was played this morning, coincided with my mood and the circumstances of my life in that moment. This delicious mix of music created the perfect soundtrack to my life as it was unfolding at that moment in time.

Ah well. Now it is 1:03AM and I have just woken up after falling asleep in front of my computer. I guess that's my hint to exit stage right and get ready for bed. Cue the music and roll the credits!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

The Emperor Wears No Clothes

I had the most beautiful day yesterday and I am filled to the brim with gratitude for all of the good energy and positive things that came my way. The day started with me lazily dozing on and off until about 10AM. About an hour later I checked my e-mail to find that I did indeed get the job with The Vox Collective! I'll be the new executive assistant to the four senior partners of the advertising agency. I am so excited to be taking a step in the right direction career wise, well, and having weekends off is a bonus as well!

After this great news, I tidied up my room a bit, made myself some lunch and printed out the RSVP list for the digital art show at Google's offices here in the city. It was a great experience being invited to help out with this event and get a glimpse at some great art and the inside of the great space that is Google. The art that I found to be the most significant is titled Mission Eternity. It is a collection of bits of information of a dying person that is stored in a vast database used to create "Arcanum Capsules" in a sense it is a very personalized and intimate time capsule of a person's existence. These fragments of life, the knowledge, the sounds, circle the globe through networked computers allowing the dying or dead person a limited immortality. Really deep on every level. I'm still trying to digest the entire concept. Copy & paste this link to watch the video if this is your "schtickt" it really is pretty amazing: http://www.etoy.com/files/movies/mission-eternity/2007_02_20_missioneternityslideshowwithsoundweb.mov

Once I was done working the event, I met up with my favorite man in the whole wide world, Nile. We enjoyed a great dinner at Room Service on 14th St. (I'm looking forward to leftovers tonight!). Dinner was followed by a trip back to my place where he showed me his scrapbook of his stay in India. I feel like me calling it a "scrapbook" demeans the value of what he created, it's more like a really cool physical manifestation of his memories of the journey. This was followed by us sharing my bed and him telling me he loves me. I was wholeheartedly able to say this back to him, because I do love him. My walls and boundaries are non-existent with him. I feel him in ways I don't even understand. I can't describe how he makes me feel because this new feeling is so foreign to me, but I can say don't ever settle, everyone deserves to find love like this.

This also, is just too good.

You're welcome.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Earthly Delights

I forgot how great it feels to get lost in life's simple pleasures. Something as simple as a long hot shower (while listening to Sparklehorse's "It's a Wonderful Life") can make you feel so good. I feel refreshed, relaxed and at peace with the world. I've been so busy lately, that I am relishing in the fact that I have nothing to do tonight.

So my todo list tonight consists of this: blog, lounge, love poems, eat cake, lounge, sleep. *sigh of contentment*

Here is a poem, by the great Spanish Poet, Pablo Neruda. Thanks Lindsay for turning me on to his work.

"If You Forget Me" - Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Maldoror and the Light at the End of the Tunnel

"God grant that the reader, emboldened and having become at present as fierce as what he is reading, find, without loss of bearings, his way, his wild and treacherous passage through the desolate swamps of these sombre, poison-soaked pages; for, unless he should bring to his reading a rigorous logic and a sustained mental effort at least as strong as his distrust, the lethal fumes of this book shall dissolve his soul as water does sugar." - The first sentence, a warning of sorts, of Les Chants de Maldoror. You know you're in for a doozy when the author needs to offer up such a solemn disclaimer!

I'm not really sure why I've been compelled for so long to want to read this work. I'm looking forward to delving into a work that I'll have to wrap my mind around, something chewy to stimulate my sleepy brain. Maldoror, the protagonist, is a misanthropic figure of absolute evil who is opposed to God and has renounced all morality and decency. I get the sense it could be compared to the works of Georges Bataille. I've always found the literature exploring the dark recesses of humanity that influenced the Surrealist movement to be intriguing. Creepy but intriguing. This is a spooky journey I will embark on as soon as I can get my hands on this book. Apparently a daunting task since The Strand, even with its 18 miles of books, doesn't have it.

But on a contrary and much lighter note, I think all my (good) luck has returned and things are really starting to pick up for me! I've made my first official NYC friend, I've been invited to attend an exhibit opening at Google-East, and I'll be volunteering at Fashion Week this September. It feels so good to feel like I'm headed in the right direction. Once again, I can't say enough how grateful I am to have the life I do, filled with friends, family, love, hope and endless opportunity. I guess with an outlook like mine I'd say I'm the "Anti-Maldoror".

Friday, August 13, 2010


Not really sure why I felt the need to post right now because I have nothing really to say. I'm in such a sleepy state that I actually feel sort of brain dead, is that normal? I've actually had sensations of a physical block in my brain before, maybe the phrase blockhead was paying homage to me.

I desperately want something interesting and substantial to come to mind but my mind is telling me to stop searching, it's closed shop for the day, the "Open" sign has been flipped to "Closed". So here's a quick synopsis of my week: Beyonce refuses to wear bowling shoes, Robin Thicke is careless with his Platinum AMEX card, Eat Pray Love (has changed my life) I desperately hope the movie is as good as the book, I need to get a passport and now that I've had a glimpse of cooler weather I am so ready for fall. These are the late night thoughts of a weary 'ol soul...

I don't mean to be redundant by posting music videos in each post of mine but music is a part of my daily life, so I guess it's fitting for this blog. Without further ado, here's another musical gem. It's a little sad and sleepy but I'm love.

Bonne nuit et au revoir!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Defragmenting This Mind 'O Mine

I'm really starting to research the idea of meditation. By saying this, I don't mean the cheesy "new-age" hipster sort of meditation that all the kids are doing nowadays. I am consciously attempting to find some peace of mind and I have come to the realization that I need to stop searching for this outside of myself. Money, friends, family, can give a great sense of security but I am looking for something deeper. I am looking for a sense of stability that I think ultimately only I can provide for myself. I am so turned on by the notion that if I clear out enough space in my mind, I am freeing up my mind's capacity to think more efficiently, accurately and most importantly honestly. If I stumble across a new found sense of spirituality along the way, that's great too. I've always considered myself to be spiritual rather than religious. I like the idea of finding truths that speak to me, learning life's lessons through my own enlightenment, rather than engaging in a religion that seems systematic and processed.

I'm excited to try this out and maybe once I make some room in this noggin of mine the universe will flood my mind with infinite wisdom! Or maybe I'll just be more relaxed and stress free.

Until I become a spiritual guru, it is my life's mission to dance to this: